They don't love you like I love you

Rereading this blog bums me out.

Today's actually been a bit of a bummer in the general.

I've been doing too much thinking lately, I think.

Oh well. I think the current issue is self resolving. I was right a couple months ago when I decided things will take care of themselves. I've got enough other things to do to be worrying about this kinda stuff, and I'm just... I'm just not interested in worrying about it anymore.

I have distance, in many ways. I have distance enough to not be too bothered, and I should take advantage of that. My future is here, not having a part of me trapped somewhere else. I'm not going to rush to free that up, but if that's what ends up happening, then I don't think it's going to be the end of the world either.

I need one of them tattoo'd animal shelter chicks who cries about how mean people are to ants or something. A radical shift in the exact opposite direction things have been.

Not really, but. Blah.

Anyway.

A frustration about this place, which is more germane - I'm going to go utterly fucking bonkers living with my parents.

I appreciate that they're letting me stay here, and aren't charging interests on loans, and are generally helping me handle my shit. It takes quite a bit of the load off. BUT THEY DRIVE ME NUTS.

I've been trying to cook, for example. I planned out to make spaghetti, because it's super simple, and I do it super well, and I can make enough to feed the six other people who are here for supper on Thursdays. So I go and buy all the spaghetti stuff.

But then it turns out that everyone can't make it tonight, so we're doing supper with them tomorrow night. Which is less work for me, so hey. But mom wants to make spaghetti tomorrow night, so I can't do it tonight.

So I decide hey, I'll make some toscino. If you haven't had it, it's kinda like philipino bacon - right after Sarah and I split up, I decided to buy some because it's this super appealing red color. It turns out it's also very easy to fry up, and super tasty.

So I went and got that, and some white rice, and some celery and stuff, as it's supposed to be a nice, light, refreshing meal.

BUT. Turns out that that's far too unhealthy for these guys. So, no white rice, because the toscino is apparently bad enough. And then, no celery and lettuce, because we have leftover veggies from forever ago.

Instead, here's what I got to do:



Best part is that I was so busy trying to defend my veggies and non-purple rice that I burned the fucking meat, the only part I was at all interested in.

It's a little frustrating.

It's all been a little frustrating lately. I don't really know what else to say right now.

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Apparently you just can't imbed that sumbitch on blogger for some reason anymore without writing the whole post in HTML. Which I'm not doing tonight, I don't think.