28.4.18

Right, so.

I think that was indeed a good example. Me having dated two friends really doesn't seem horribly relevant to me, and, perhaps it's simply due to that, but I have trouble seeing it as relevant to you.

It's just a lack of interest in that sense. Which, hey, I'm good with. It might shock you to know that that some kind of romance isn't really my motivation here, or why I'm interested in talking to you. It's a pretty thought, but not a realistic one. If I had a dime for every pretty thought out there, I really could spend the rest of my life drunk. I don't, but I'm still pretty good with things remaining like that.

But I think as an example, it illustrates my point pretty well. I get pretty old, pretty quick. There's a certain sort of person that I'm simply never going to have much luck with.

But I really don't feel like talking about that. I've talked about enough shitty things tonight. And like, what's the point? Rehashing shit I already know about myself, telling it to someone else in the hopes of what? Like, what's the ideal end game with something like that? Who gains anything?

What's the point of rehashing it all here? I've spent 20 years knowing what the deal is here. I know the score, yo.


I'm not sure getting drunk is going to do much to cheer me up this evening. I don't know what would. I think I'm gonna get fucked up and go ride my bike until I puke.

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