Man, I don't know what I'm doing anymore.

Most things are good. Some important things are not.

Some important things seem like they could be, but it's not really worth taking the chance and making other people sad to accomplish.

I think more than anything, it's all just very frustrating. I know what I want, but I'm so uncertain of the reality of it that I'm not going to bother to actually make a play to go get it.

I hate feeling like this. I sort of have this feeling I'm going to get hung up over nothing, and that's just stupid.

On the plus side, I've started drinking again and that's pretty nice. It's not like I have some reason not to anymore.